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In 1996, the college entrance examination was an unforgettable test for me. Mathematics, my only strength, did not perform as well as it should have, and my destiny was completely changed. The IT road that was supposed to enter a computer undergraduate college was ruined, and I entered a technical administrative college in a daze. One wrong move and everything is lost. It is true that women are afraid of marrying the wrong man and men are afraid of entering the wrong profession.
I have regretted it since the first day I stepped into that school. Because this school is literary-oriented and has little to do with mathematics and computers. And I know nothing except math. My inseparable love for mathematics led me to borrow a second volume of advanced mathematics from my older brother who was an undergraduate at another university. I used self-study time, evenings, and weekends to start self-study of advanced mathematics, page by page, line by line. Studying, I will develop my self-study ability from junior high school to high school and give full play to it. I read every chapter and then did the exercises after class. I could do them all without any guidance or asking anyone. I really admire my ability to teach myself. Maybe I am really a bit of a genius in mathematics. Now those two volumes of advanced mathematics are still treasured in my bookcase. Although the pages are yellowed and old, every time I see them, I feel a sense of satisfaction and accomplishment. Now, because I haven’t been exposed to mathematics for a long time, I have completely forgotten everything about calculus and functions. Sometimes I really want to take the time to self-study a volume of advanced mathematics from beginning to end and see what it feels like.
I was still unwilling to just learn some advanced mathematics. I thought that mathematics was a basic subject, too theoretical, too far away from practical applications, and it would be difficult to become a mathematician by self-study. So, I had the idea of doing something else, but I really didn’t want to give up my only interest and expertise. At that time, computers were developing rapidly. I had only seen what computers looked like in the glass windows of banks, but I knew nothing about computers. But my intuition tells me that computers will be the most promising and practical in the future. The key is that they are closely related to mathematics and can give full play to my strengths. I believe that with my understanding and persistent execution, I should be able to do something great. So, I saved some money from my already very small living expenses, went to the bookstore to buy books on computer-related majors, and started learning computer programming. I always insisted on using all my spare time. Others went out to play in the evening, including shopping, meeting friends, singing, dancing, eating, drinking and having fun. However, I studied computer tutorials in the big classroom and mainly taught myself programming.
At that time, computers had just begun to be popularized in universities, DOS was still in use, and windows had just begun to develop, from winx3.1 to win95 to win98, etc.; the database was foxbase and later foxPRo. Programming languages are assembly language and basic. Later, the c language emerged, and then c++, Delphi, and java. In order to make your learning more systematic, you must follow the standards of computer undergraduate students. I used my two and a half years of spare time to self-study all the textbooks for undergraduate computer science. He even taught himself the courses that were required for master's degrees in computer science at the time: such as data structures, algorithms, discrete mathematics, linear algebra, and even a little bit of fuzzy mathematics. When my classmates finally graduated and went their separate ways, everyone who knew me told me: You are the only person in the school who has achieved righteous cultivation.
In September 1999, I graduated from university and returned to my hometown. I successfully entered the government agency of this county and became a civil servant that was the envy of countless farmer comrades. I just started working, and I feel quite relaxed. I no longer have to worry about exams. My nervousness can finally relax, and my old problem of neurasthenia has also improved. In the two years before I started working, I was doing work that had nothing to do with computers. The computer knowledge I learned in the past three years was of no use. But in order to survive, we have no choice but to continue working. During this period, I was thinking hard about where the direction of my life was, and where the computer, which I loved deeply and was my only hobby and specialty, should go. But I hinted to myself that no matter what, I must never give up on my specialty of computing, and I must keep doing it.
In my spare time, I still insisted on learning the software programming knowledge that I thought I should master or important. In 2001, in our county, the Internet and Internet cafes began to rise, and Tencent QQ became popular. There is no one around me who understands software or programming, and there are even very few people who understand computers. There was no one to communicate with about software topics, and the information was severely blocked. I felt that my skills were very professional, which made me feel very good about myself. In fact, I became a frog in the well, because I didn’t even know anything about the Internet at that time, and I didn’t even know much about QQ. Thinking about it now, I really can’t laugh or cry. In 2002, when the Internet began to rise and the web application and website design industries were booming, due to lack of information, people did not know how to read news on the Internet, learn knowledge through the Internet, or even ask questions and look them up online. I still think that I am stupid and work hard on desktop application language tools such as c language, c++, vc++, borland c++, java, and delphi, and have an in-depth and systematic study of object-oriented principles and tool usage such as vc++ and java. (At the time, it seemed that the knowledge I learned did not have great application value. But later, including now, I really feel that the profound theoretical foundation laid at that time played an irreplaceable and critical role in the development of project software. Function.) Later, in the winter of 2002, I successfully developed an application software using delphi6, with a client and a server. At first, I felt that it was a great achievement to successfully develop this software. I had no idea that I had actually been left far behind by the rapid development of the Internet.
Three months later, in the spring of 2003, by chance, I heard that an application software could be run through the network, and any computer connected to the Internet could access this application software. Can the application software I developed be put online and run through the network? What exactly is accessing applications through the network? I quickly went online to find relevant knowledge. Later I realized that this is a dynamic website: b/s (browser/server) mode. The case management system that I developed before was in c/s (client/server) mode. From then on, I started to study crazily: html, Dreamweaver, photoshop, Flash, CSS, xml, iis, asp, jsp, javascript, vbscript, then sql, mssql relational database, Oracle 9i relational object database, and even learned UML and rose modeling tool.
In May 2003, I used iis, asp, mssql2000 and other language tools to independently develop an office automation software (using delphi to develop the online editor activeX control, developed the upload file component, and used java to develop a picture carousel-like applet) is a data-driven dynamic web website application that can send and receive files through the network. In addition to using the software I developed in my own company, I also sold it to more than a dozen brother companies for online office use. This is how I earned the first pot of gold in my software career. Later, mobile OA (also known as mobile cms) was developed for Microsoft's Windows Mobile mobile phone users, which can publish and sign for documents through mobile phones. Now my company is still using the software I developed for online office work. I see my colleagues in the company using their own software every day. The software I developed feels like this is the only gratifying thing that I have been studying computer software for more than 10 years.
It wasn't until recently that I realized that the software I had always called office automation was actually what people in the industry now call CMS. After painstaking research, development and expansion of modules, the software has now become an integrated CMS, blog (similar to Sohu blog, you can use the mouse to drag modules from one location to another), forum and integrated asp.net ( c#), Ajax and mssql2005 comprehensive application platform, completely developed by myself.
My interest in learning new knowledge and solving new problems has led me to develop the habit of frequent online searches. I discovered our great Webmaster Network by chance, and then found Webmaster Home from Webmaster Network. I finally found the organization like this. I really felt like I had not met for such a long time, a warm sense of belonging, a feeling of going home, and a sincere feeling of happiness. At the beginning, I studied all the newly published articles on the two websites, Webmaster.com and Webmaster Home, and decided to make up for it. I really felt that I had been left too far behind by the Internet, and there were too many things I didn’t know. , various websites, the profit model of Wuhua Beimen, the most popular things on the Internet at present, what is the development direction, there are too many things to learn. For example, various types of websites: e-commerce (including c2c, c2b, b2b, group buying, point buying, selling physical goods, selling virtual goods, some operating honestly, some fraud, and some theft), currently the most popular: Weibo, SNS, group buying, LBS, video, search, Apple i products, Google's android, mobile Internet, SP to collect phone bills, mobile pornographic website ads to make money, develop mobile applications, implant viruses into smart phones, SP cooperates with mobile phone manufacturers to cheat money, competitors engage in war of words, Internet trolls manipulate public opinion and confuse right and wrong, Weibo makes money from fans, spam emails earn advertising fees, online shopping is phishing, and mobile phone text message fraud , hacking and cracking, DDoS attacks, stealing private information and selling it for money, WikiLeaks, etc. There are too many new knowledge to learn. At the beginning, I didn't eat, drink or sleep all day, and I couldn't read the newly published articles. Later, if I couldn't finish them, I would read the first and last abstracts. If that didn't work, I would read the subtitles. If that didn't work, I would just read the article titles. I persisted like this for two months. I unknowingly got to know SEO during the learning process, and began to browse all the articles about SEO on Webmaster Home every day. During this period, I learned Zac's "SEO Practical Code" and purchased it online through the Electronic Industry Publishing website. One book, and the next day I bought another best-selling book by Zac, "Internet Marketing Practical Codes". I read the chapters of SEO Practical Codes excerpted by Webmaster Home carefully twice. Since I really couldn't spare the time, I read two books by Zac. I only read more than 20 pages of "Practical Code of Internet Marketing", and I still feel that I have benefited a lot.
I feel extremely envious when I see others being able to do what they like with the people they like. I really yearn for a life where I can work happily, no matter how hard and tiring it is. Unfortunately, there is no such thing now. What there is is facing a group of uninterested people all day long and doing a bunch of uninterested things. It is really depressing. For me, being able to do what I like with the person I like is perhaps the greatest luxury in this life. Through life training, I carefully examined the twists and turns of my past life, and found that I have always been living in a sub-healthy state. Specific performance:
1. Physical sub-health: If you spend a lot of time in front of the computer, you should exercise more, otherwise your body will be overwhelmed. My eyes are fixed on the monitor, my body is sitting motionless on the chair, my body is not turning, my neck is not twisting, and I sit there for several hours. As a result, my eyes hurt, my neck hurts, my shoulders hurt, my back hurts, and what happens to my body? You can eat it. There are endless articles to read and endless knowledge to learn every day. I feel like I am lacking everything but time. I am not tired anywhere but my eyes are tired.
2. Mental sub-health; pursue perfection, if you don’t do it, it will be enough, and if you do, try to do your best. A good performance of this kind of character is persistence, and a bad performance is stubbornness. Suspicion when things happen: A small thing, a casual remark, something that others may have forgotten long ago, will keep thinking about it, and it will appear in your mind, lingering for a long time, feeling uncomfortable for a long time, always thinking that others He is deliberately hurting himself and has a strong desire for revenge.
3. Sub-health at work: There are many meetings in the unit, and daily meetings take up a large part of the time. Every meeting will feel like a huge waste of time and absent-minded. Afraid or unwilling to meet or talk to leaders. Sometimes, when we happen to meet someone face to face, I really can't think of what to say. I don't know what to say. I have nothing to say. I just say hello and hurry up and leave. There is a strong sense of distance in my heart.
4. Social sub-health; only willing to interact, eat, and play with familiar friends; unwilling to get acquainted with unknown strangers. With people who have the same hobbies, you can chat endlessly and talk about endless topics for three days and three nights; but when you meet someone with whom you don’t have the same hobbies, you just can’t think of the topic and don’t know what to say. Not speculating, just half a sentence.
5. Sub-health of career; professionalism is not a professional thing, but professionalism is not a professional thing either. Let’s say that we haven’t achieved any results. That’s not true. Let’s say that we have achieved a lot. It’s still far from what we expected.
6. Emotional sub-health; in school, due to stubbornness and paranoid personality, he passed by the girl he had a crush on. Until now, I still don’t know how to pursue the girl I like. It’s really frustrating.
7. Sub-healthy marriage; I didn’t know what was wrong with me at the time. Not long after I got married, I started to have regrets. Just because I really couldn't open my mouth, and I wasn't an irresponsible person, I just let nature take its course and just kept talking, which ultimately led to a tragedy in the marriage. Not only did it hurt myself, but it also hurt the parents, families, and children of both parties. But I have never regretted it, and I still don't.
8. Sub-healthy life: work, home, two points and one line, not willing to travel, not willing to go shopping, not willing to go to activities alone, except for a few close classmates, all eating and drinking, no other spare time and other activities What hobby.
9. Sub-health of the family; not caring enough about parents, not being filial enough, not even knowing how to care for the elderly, how to love parents, let alone understanding the emotional world of parents, having too little communication with parents, and thinking about themselves when they have time. How to write the program, how to implement this function, I only know how to solve the bugs in the program.
10. Sub-health in life; giving too much and getting too little. As an amateur programmer, if you want to achieve the same results as people in the industry, you have to work several times or even more than ten times as hard as people in the industry.
I don’t know if these sub-health symptoms are my own unique character flaws, or have others experienced similar feelings?
Words from the bottom of my heart, source http://www.ezhangfeng.com .
Thank you to Wang's Schefflera Specialist for your contribution.